I have been going through a bout of the mommy blues as of late. Family knows that I’ve had it a few times since Gabriel’s birth but it usually quickly diminishes. This most recent round seems rather difficult and I’m really struggling to move past it. I suppose it’s a lot to do with the baby getting older and more independent and at the same time more needy as well. His naps are few and far between and only minutes when they do come. I’m hoping to get a little advice on his sleeping habits from the Pediatrician this coming Friday. (9 months check-up)

I know I have only myself to blame for his spoiled nature (how can I not know when EVERYONE tells me as much), but it doesn’t help the fact that he is and I’m trying to break him of it and its slow going.

The lack of personal time is what’s really causing frustration lately. I have absolutely no time during the day to do things for myself and I always look forward to the afternoon/night when I am hopeful for those quiet moments when I might have the opportunity to fit some in. Usually I am disappointed and by the time all is calm in the household I am just too tired to do anything.

I am very motivated by the prospect of opening up shop and selling some of my new clay projects but finding the time to bring any of my ideas to fruition is nonexistent. I had hoped for a mid September opening featuring adorable Halloween themed items but it most definitely will not be happening. The idea of having to wait until next season for those makes me unhappy.

I know eventually my mood will lighten, as Gabriel is my heart, but I can’t help but feel down for the time being.